Lead up to my birthday

So its only a few days until i turn 16, still a virgin, smoked, drank, but my worst regret? Pushing everyone out of my life, i mean, whats to show for these 16 years I've been alive? I just hope things start to get better. I hope. And you can hope with me, be patient abi x x x 

Ps, this is what my own sister thinks of me